FSGOR Ch48part1

Chu Xuyu sat alone in his car, watching two movies on the car’s screen. During this time, he didn’t receive a single message from Jiang Tian.

But his heart had calmed down considerably.

Through the deep themes of the romantic movies, he began to reflect on the issues of dominance and obsession he had exposed in this relationship.

For someone as young and inexperienced in love as Jiang Tian, perhaps he had already brought a lot of overwhelming emotions to the other person, but he had never reflected on this.

“…”

Chu Xuyu pressed his aching forehead and was about to turn off the movie interface when a new movie recommendation popped up.

It was a recent Oscar-nominated dark horse film, telling the story of two male protagonists’ experiences during their sexual orientation awakening.

In the story, one of the male protagonists faced painful struggles with issues of sexual positioning.

As the plot gradually unfolded, it was later revealed that the lover had experienced severe childhood trauma, having been sexually assaulted by an acquaintance of his father, which led to his resistance and even sexual shame.

When Chu Xuyu read this part, his heart sank heavily.

The man’s temples were throbbing, and his breathing was unstable. Although he hadn’t experienced anything similar, his reasons for resistance also stemmed from childhood shadows.

It was an extremely sultry summer.

He was studying at a middle school in Los Angeles during the summer vacation. Returning home from a friend’s house, he accidentally saw his father bringing a strange man home.

At that time, Chu Xuyu could sense something was wrong from the atmosphere, and his mother was always in tears. The boy tiptoed and quietly followed up to the attic—

And then he personally witnessed the disgusting scene of his father being pressed down by a strange man.

Even though time had passed and he had undergone psychological treatment, that scene seemed to be vividly before his eyes and could not be dispelled, like a virus coexisting with his body.

Buzz.

At this moment, the phone on the central console vibrated.

Chu Xuyu quickly picked it up, thinking it was a reply from Jiang Tian, but it turned out to be a message from a friend of a prominent family, and he couldn’t help but feel a sense of disappointment.

Eason: Hi, the phone’s synchronization function detected abnormal sleep quality. May I ask if President Chu is still alive?

Chu Xuyu glanced at the screen and didn’t even have the mood to retort. He was still hanging on to his life.

Eason: …

Eason: Why are you so depressed?

Eason: I’ve never seen you like this even after a week of high-intensity meetings.

Afternoon Tea: Mmm.

Afternoon Tea: Thanks for your concern.

Eason: ……

Eason: … Could it be that you’re suffering from lovesickness?

Fu Bo Xi no longer joked around and directly called, asking in a serious tone after connecting, “What happened?”

Chu Xuyu truthfully told this friend who was a psychologist, “Well, it’s probably like this.”

“So, it’s a problem of positioning in bed?”

Fu Bo Xi clicked his tongue, “That’s indeed tricky. This situation is too complex… and it’s hard to be a zero for love in bed.”

Chu Xuyu’s face darkened, “Is that funny?”

“Aren’t friends here to compare miseries?” Fu Bo Xi was quite talkative, “Do you think Shen Yan is doing well?”

“His date was photographed by a fan site, and that person is now haggling with the studio, refusing to keep it confidential even after getting a large sum of money. Our emotionally stable film emperor is already resentful enough to want to take revenge on society.”

Chu Xuyu didn’t know much about these things and didn’t think it was a big deal. He even felt it was understandable for Shen Yan to become irritable and resentful because of love.

Fu Bo Xi took it for granted, “Otherwise, what could it be for?”

“President Chu should also put himself in others’ shoes. With our friendship, who would have thought that you would be so troubled for a new boyfriend?”

“…”

It was nothing more than encountering true love, which completely changed one’s temperament. This psychologist wanted to express exactly this meaning.

Chu Xuyu didn’t know what else to say to him and hung up the phone in a daze. After that, he still wanted to find Jiang Tian and have a good chat, even though his lover hadn’t replied to his messages.

He didn’t think Jiang Tian was the kind of person who would deliberately ignore others. Maybe he just hadn’t seen the messages. He was willing to continue sitting in the car.

At the same time.

Jiang Tian had just woken up from the sofa not long ago. Afraid of missing any messages, his phone was not on silent mode, but he still hadn’t received any notifications, so he naturally thought that Chu Xuyu hadn’t contacted him.

The young man groggily got up, thinking he should install the surveillance camera first. He was so efficient out of anger from the scumbag’s words; otherwise, he was so hungry that his chest was sticking to his back, and he didn’t have the energy to do these things.

Then, after he installed the surveillance camera and was about to order takeout, he walked back to the sofa, picked up his phone, and found that it had long been out of battery and turned off.

“…”

A bad premonition instantly surged in his heart.

He busily looked for the charger, plugged in the power, and after the phone was finally turned on with difficulty, the flood of messages almost overwhelmed him.

A few hours ago, Chu Xuyu had sent him a message saying he was waiting for him in the Xingfu Port community. He quickly ran to the window and looked down, but he didn’t see the familiar car. Still, he wasn’t at ease and went back to send a message with his phone, hoping that Chu Xuyu was no longer waiting for him downstairs.

Afternoon Tea: Still downstairs.

Afternoon Tea: Are you feeling better?

Afternoon Tea: Are you willing to see me?

Jiang Tian: “…”

He didn’t unwilling to see Chu Xuyu, nor was he deliberately ignoring him. But before he could explain, he quickly sent a message asking if he wanted to meet now.

Afternoon Tea: Mmm.

Afternoon Tea: I’m coming up.

KIRA: I’ll come down to pick you up.

Both sent messages at the same time, but Chu Xuyu insisted that he didn’t need to be picked up. He said he had already arrived at the building and asked him to open the door.

“Ding dong ding dong~”

Sure enough, there was a doorbell prompt from the entrance. Jiang Tian was busy as a spinning top, quickly going to open the door for him, nervously standing behind the door waiting for him.

At that moment.

He realized that he had done wrong by leaving without a proper explanation. He couldn’t remember how many times he had done similar things to Chu Xuyu.

The young man’s heart was filled with guilt, making him overlook the reason for his escape. He thought that he should have a good talk when they met and change his bad habits in the future.

“Ding~”

The doorbell rang.

He should have been wary of unlawful elements outside, such as the cunning scumbag, but his eagerness to see Chu Xuyu made him forget to think.

Whoosh—
He opened the door slightly. As the door opened wider, he and the man standing outside locked eyes—both hesitating, as if they had something to say but couldn’t find the words.
Even Chu Xuyu, who usually carried an intimidating presence without trying, had his lashes lowered ever so slightly, his expression faintly tinged with guilt—an unusual hesitation hanging on his lips.
“…Chu-Ge.”
Jiang Tian opened the door wider, the gesture an invitation inside. His tone had softened. “Come in.”
Just as Chu Xuyu stepped forward, his stomach let out a loud growl—embarrassingly loud, as if all the dignity he’d built up in this life had been lost in that moment. It was beyond awkward.
Jiang Tian felt even more guilty. He guessed Chu Xuyu had waited too long without eating—what kind of well-off CEO ends up starving like this?
“Sorry… I fell asleep after getting home. I didn’t see your messages.”
Jiang Tian offered a quiet explanation, nervously picking at the seam of his jeans. His throat bobbed slightly. “Do you want something to eat? I’ll cook…”
Before he could finish, the man suddenly pulled him into a hug.
Jiang Tian’s eyes widened in shock. Unlike Chu Xuyu’s past kisses—heated or overbearing—this time, he simply embraced him quietly, the gesture tinged with careful gentleness.
“I’m not that hungry,” Chu Xuyu said softly. “Are you still angry?”
Jiang Tian shook his head. It wasn’t quite anger—it was more that he didn’t know how to deal with conflict, so he’d instinctively avoided it. “…I wasn’t perfect either.”
“Alright then.”
Chu Xuyu raised his hand, gently covering the back of Jiang Tian’s head and soothingly rubbed it. “Let’s not talk about it anymore, okay?”
Jiang Tian nodded in agreement.
He could feel it too—maybe Chu Xuyu really had a nightmare or something had thrown him off. His earlier insistence on being intimate must’ve come from that. As his boyfriend, he should’ve been more understanding.
Both of them were starving, so they ordered groceries from the fresh food store near the neighborhood gate. They quickly made a simple meal—two meat dishes and one vegetable—and properly dealt with their hunger.
There was no dishwasher at home, and what surprised Jiang Tian was that Chu Xuyu actually rolled up his sleeves, went into the kitchen, and washed the dishes himself. He even asked if he could stay the night.
“…It’s a little small here.”
He said that, but his hands were holding a napkin, carefully drying Chu Xuyu’s wet hands. “As long as you don’t mind, then it’s fine.”
Chu Xuyu let out a quiet sigh of relief. He didn’t think Jiang Tian’s place was lacking at all.
On the contrary, this school district apartment in the old town was fairly high-end, and the cozy decor showed how much the secretary had invested in every little detail.
That night—
Chu Xuyu really did stay over. He wore Jiang Tian’s pajamas—their heights were close, so the fit was surprisingly perfect.
But the showerhead seemed to have been damaged before—the water pressure flickering unpredictably. Chu Xuyu mentioned it offhandedly, and for some reason, Jiang Tian’s ears flushed bright red.
“Hmm?”
Chu Xuyu sat on the edge of the bed, wearing a Pokémon Squirtle collab pajama set that didn’t match his elite CEO aura at all. “Why do you look so guilty?”
Jiang Tian scratched his nose. “…I don’t.”
He pretended to busy himself, also dressed in a Bulbasaur-themed pajama set. Looking at himself now, he regretted not buying more neutral styles. What kind of image had he just given this mature and capable CEO?
Also, he was feeling guilty about the broken showerhead. It happened the time he got too nervous after breaking up with an online fling and accidentally fell while showering after watching a… Gay Video. He never bothered to fix it.