MFMBSA 64

Chapter 64 – Attempt

 

Qi Xi woke up and realized that Fu Yanchuan had returned. He turned over in Fu Yanchuan’s arms, leaned against Fu Yanchuan’s chest and asked, “When did you come back?”

 

When Fu Yanchuan went to the sanatorium last night, he sent a message to Qi Xi, saying that he couldn’t go back because of something. He looked at Qi Xi with an aggrieved look and asked, “Did you wait for me last night? Did you miss me?”

 

“Yeah.” Qi Xi responded and dived into Fu Yanchuan’s arms. “I was thinking, are you working overtime again? Aren’t you the boss? Why are you working so hard?”

 

Upon hearing this, Fu Yanchuan remembered that no one seemed to care about his hard work. He suddenly held Qi Xi tightly in his arms and whispered in his ear: “Xixi, will you always love me like this?”

 

Qi Xi nodded vigorously, and his movements were so big that he hit Fu Yanchuan’s chin. He quickly rubbed Fu Yanchuan’s chin and said, “Does it hurt?”

 

Fu Yanchuan grabbed his hand and looked at him without saying anything. He then leaned forward and said, “Brother Xixi will always like Yanyan like this. Who made you sad? I’ll help you scold him. Is he your father?”

 

“Yes.”

 

Fu Yanchuan’s reply was full of coquettishness that he himself didn’t even notice. He held Qi Xi’s hand tightly, put it on his lips and kissed it gently, “As long as you are here, Qi Xi, I’ll be fine. Don’t leave me.”

 

Qi Xi liked Fu Yanchuan’s words very much. It made him feel that Fu Yanchuan needed him very much and that he was very, very important to Fu Yanchuan.

 

He pulled Fu Yanchuan’s hand towards him, kissed the back of Fu Yanchuan’s hand, and answered seriously: “The light is with you.”

 

Fu Yanchuan couldn’t help laughing. He was not dissatisfied with Qi Xi for ruining the atmosphere. He turned over and covered his lips tightly. He then ever so slowly reached a hand into his pajamas.

 

Qi Xi finally had a chance to speak, and hurriedly reminded Fu Yanchuan, “Brother Yan, you will be late for work!”

 

“Today’s the weekend.”

 

Qi Xi just remembered that he had no reason to refuse, so he moved his limbs toward Fu Yanchuan and kissed him actively.

 

However, Fu Yanchuan did not do anything. Qi Xi just kept touching and kissing him. When he was out of strength, he let him go and let him get up.

 

It was the weekend, but Fu Yanchuan had something to deal with not long after breakfast. He reluctantly said goodbye to Qi Xi who was seeing him off to the door.

 

“I’ll be back when I’m done.”

 

Qi Xi held him and rubbed against him like an orange cat, “Then you should go earlier.”

 

“Good.”

 

Fu Yanchuan kissed him lightly on the lips and left. He stayed at the door for a long time before going back.

 

Qi Xi didn’t know if he understood Fu Yanchuan. Most of the time he still didn’t understand what Fu Yanchuan was thinking, but sometimes he could clearly sense Fu Yanchuan’s emotions. Just like when he woke up this morning, he felt that Fu Yanchuan looked at him as if he was about to cry. Something must have happened yesterday.

 

Qi Xi had been worrying about this question the whole morning, but Fu Yanchuan refused to say that he would definitely not tell him even if he asked.

 

He held the orange cat in his arms and asked, “Great Sage, do you think Brother Yan is upset because he is going bankrupt? I don’t understand what the news said. Why would he and his father go bankrupt?”

 

The orange cat didn’t understand either, “Meow?”

 

Qi Xi lay down on the sofa again and continued thinking until he finished his lunch and Uncle Quan suddenly came to his door.

 

Uncle Quan walked in and saw only Qi Xi, “Is Mr. Fu out?”

 

Qi Xi hadn’t seen Uncle Quan for a long time. When he saw him holding a large cardboard box, he hurried to take it. Brother Yan had gone out to work, so was this for Brother Yan?

 

“It’s a photo of him from the past.”

 

Hearing that they were photos, Qi Xi opened the box and looked at them. To be exact, they were photos of Fu Yanchuan when he was a child, from infancy to adolescence.

 

In addition to Fu Yanchuan, there were sometimes other people in the photos, among whom the only one he knew was Lin Xianjing. Lin Xianjing looked very different at that time, not just younger, but more importantly, she looked much more energetic than now.

 

Fu Yanchuan is not much different from now, still serious and unsmiling, and no one knows what he is thinking at such a young age.

 

Qi Xi flipped down and found that several photo frames were broken. “Uncle Quan, why are they broken? Did something happen?”

 

Uncle Quan hesitated for a long time before he decided to say, “Mr. Fu’s mother was seriously ill yesterday.”

 

“Ah!” Qi Xi suddenly understood why Fu Yanchuan looked unhappy, “Brother Yan came back without telling me anything, is it serious?”

 

“She should be stable now.”

 

Uncle Quan sighed as he spoke, “Mr. Fu has never been one to talk about his hardships since he was young. When he was a kid, he went to learn horseback riding and got injured, but he still persevered, even though he was only a few years old.”

 

Qi Xi was particularly serious when he heard about Fu Yanchuan’s childhood. Uncle Quan thought about it for a long time before continuing.

 

“Do you know why sir hates the chairman so much?”

 

He shook his head, and Uncle Quan explained, “Because his mother attempted suicide when the he was 12 years old. After being rescued, Mr. Fu never forgave the chairman.”

 

Qi Xi remembered that Fu Yanchuan told him that his mother committed suicide when he was 18 years old. It turned out that was not the first time.

 

“Madam was a very promising dancer and she came from a good family. The chairman saw her at a performance and pursued her, and then they got married. At that time, everyone could see that Madam loved the chairman and was even willing to give up her dancing career for him and be Madam Fu full-time. But——”

 

Uncle Quan paused here, looked at Qi Xi and continued, “On the third year after Mr. Fu was born, the chairman began to educate him too strictly. For example, he was not allowed to cry, he was not allowed to give up, and he had to do everything he could to get what he wanted. For such a young child, such education was inappropriate and even excessive in the eyes of ordinary people. It was from then on that Madam Fu had a conflict with the chairman.”

 

In fact, Lin Xianjing not only had a conflict with Fu Zhenrong at that time, but also found that to Fu Zhenrong, she was just like a decoration and a tool for giving birth to children.

 

Fu Zhenrong totally ignored her advice, and even when she tried to stop him from over-educating Fu Yanchuan, Fu Zhenrong forcibly forbade her to see Fu Yanchuan.

 

At the beginning, Lin Xianjing resisted and even proposed a divorce to Fu Zhenrong. Fu Zhenrong did not disagree with the divorce, but he clearly cut off the possibility of her taking Fu Yanchuan away.

 

In the end, Lin Xianjing gave up divorce for Fu Yanchuan, and in order to see Fu Yanchuan, she no longer obstructed Fu Zhenrong’s education. She just taught Fu Yanchuan over and over again in the areas that Fu Zhenrong couldn’t stand, hoping that Fu Yanchuan would not become the kind of person Fu Zhenrong taught when he grew up, a cold-blooded machine with no feelings and distorted values.

 

But in a family, Fu Zhenrong couldn’t be completely unaware. When Fu Zhenrong found out about Lin Xianjing’s teaching of Fu Yanchuan, he would put her under house arrest and then punish her.

 

At that time, the entire Fu family, including Fu Yanchuan, had heard that Fu Zhenrong had violated Lin Xianjing in the room and verbally humiliated her, saying that she could only use her body to seduce men and that she danced only to please men. She was completely useless and had no vision. She knew nothing about education or men’s ambitions.

 

Uncle Quan didn’t want to tell Qi Xi about those things that were too unbearable, so he only said, “Under the chairman’s education, Mr. Fu eventually became more and more indifferent and less empathetic. And after years of accumulated conflicts, Madam. Fu finally reached her limit. When Mr. Fu was 12 years old, she planned to commit suicide with him, but in the end she was the only one who took the medicine.”

 

That year, it was Fu Yanchuan who called the ambulance. When he rushed there, the 12-year-old Fu Yanchuan looked at Lin Xianjing coldly like an emotionless robot.

 

After Lin Xianjing was rescued, Fu Yanchuan became even less talkative, as if he had lost his feelings for everyone and only listened to Fu Zhenrong.

 

He thought that the feelings that Lin Xianjing had instilled in Fu Yanchuan through the gaps in Fu Zhenrong’s education had no effect, until one day Fu Yanchuan asked him, “I’m in this state, why doesn’t she abandon me and leave?”

 

Qi Xi cried louder and louder. He wiped his tears and complained, “How could his father be so bad! He is even worse than my father!”

 

Uncle Quan told him, “Mr. Xiao Qi, don’t tell the Mr. Fu what I told you. Mr. Fu certainly doesn’t want you to know this… But he has endured enough by himself until now. Now that you are by his side, he has changed a little.”

 

“Yeah, I understand. I won’t tell him.”

 

Uncle Quan added, “Mr. Fu was taught differently from ordinary people since he was young and has some shortcomings in his character. I hope you can be more tolerant of him and comfort him more. Over the years, you are the first person who can make him laugh from the bottom of his heart.”

 

In fact, Uncle Quan was very surprised that Fu Yanchuan and Qi Xi had come to this point. Qiao Ye had never allowed Fu Yanchuan to truly open up to him.

 

Qi Xi was still sad, but when he heard Uncle Quan say that, his expression changed to one that looked like he was crying and laughing at the same time. He shyly replied, “Brother Yan is so good to me, I will treat him well too. Next time I see his father, I won’t let him beat him again.”

 

“Mr. Fu was beaten?”

 

“Yes, during the Chinese New Year, his father punched Brother Yan’s face so hard that it was swollen. That was too much!”

 

Uncle Quan guessed that this was not the first time that Fu Yanchuan and Fu Zhenrong had a conflict. He didn’t expect that this would happen. Fu Yanchuan had never been beaten in his life, even if it was Fu Zhenrong. It was no wonder that Fu Yanchuan made up his mind.

 

But he couldn’t do much, so he handed the photo to Qi Xi and said, “Please give the photo to Mr. Qi, I’ll leave now.”

 

Qi Xi sent Uncle Quan away, placed all the photo frames in the study, and then lay down on Fu Yanchuan’s seat waiting for Fu Yanchuan to come back.

 

He couldn’t get over what Uncle Quan said, and he felt sad every time he thought about it. But when he heard the door open, he immediately hid his sadness, ran out and pounced on Fu Yanchuan.

 

“Brother Yan, you’re back!”

 

Fu Yanchuan felt that Qi Xi was particularly enthusiastic today and asked him, “What’s wrong?”

 

“Uncle Quan brought you some photos of your childhood, and I put them all in the study.”

 

He paused, fearing that Uncle Quan had said something. He pulled him closer and tried to find out something from Qi Xi’s eyes, but he only saw joy in seeing him. He asked directly, “What did he say to you?”

 

“He said, ‘Auntie was seriously ill yesterday. Did you go to see her yesterday? Let’s go see her again sometime!'”

 

Fu Yanchuan was stunned for two seconds. “Her health has always been poor. The doctor said she needs to rest recently. We will go when she feels better.”

 

“Then don’t be sad. Brother Xixi will serve you today.”

 

Qi Xi took off Fu Yanchuan’s coat. He then hung it up and pushed Fu Yanchuan to sit on the sofa. He stood aside respectfully and asked: “Brother Yan, do you want tea or fruit? Or both?”

 

Fu Yanchuan stared at Qi Xi strangely, not knowing what he was thinking, and answered, “Fruit.”

 

“Please wait.”

 

Qi Xi quickly ran to the refrigerator and took out a few things, placed them on the coffee table and asked, “Excuse me, do you need anything else?”

 

Fu Yanchuan couldn’t stand his look, so he hugged the man who didn’t know how he was acting and said, “Feed me.”

 

“You really are so spoiled. But Brother Yanyan can have whatever he wants.”

 

Qi Xi wanted to go down to get the fruit, but Fu Yanchuan didn’t let go. So Qi Xi could only stretch out his hand to hook a strawberry and feed it to Fu Yanchuan’s mouth, “Ah, open your mouth.”

 

Fu Yanchuan opened his mouth and took a bite of the strawberry. Qi Xi asked him seriously, “Is it sweet?”

 

He grabbed Qi Xi and made him taste it directly in his mouth, then asked, “Is it sweet?”

 

Qi Xi licked his lips that were stained with strawberry juice and said, “I can’t continue like this.”

 

“Continue what?”

 

“It’s too good for you.”

 

Fu Yanchuan smiled, raised his neck and leaned close to Qi Xi’s lips and said, “I want something else.”

 

“What?”

 

“Think it yourself.”

 

Qi Xi pushed Fu Yanchuan away in dissatisfaction, “You are so annoying. You want me to figure it out again. What should I do if I can’t think of it?”

 

Fu Yanchuan hugged him without saying anything. He said with an expression that said, “Okay, who told me to like you? I will think about it.”

 

Facing such a Qi Xi, all of Fu Yanchuan’s nerves were soothed. Actually, he didn’t really have anything to want when he said this. He just wanted to see what result Qi Xi would come up with for him.

 

By bedtime, he had forgotten what he had said. When he came out of the shower, Qi Xi suddenly pushed him onto the bed. He leaned over him and said to him seriously, “Brother Yan, let’s get on the real bed!”

 

Fu Yanchuan’’s temples throbbed. He understood but didn’t quite understand what a real bed was. He pressed Qi Xi’s waist, which was pressed against him, and asked, “Do you know what you want to do?”

 

Qi Xi’s only experience was with the comics he had read, but they were censored and lacked details. When he said he knew, it seemed like he didn’t know much, and when he said he didn’t know, he knew roughly.

 

Having talked to Fu Yanchuan about going to bed so many times, he only now really considered what to do. Who is on the bottom between him and Fu Yanchuan?

 

He actually had the answer to this question in his subconscious, but his mind was still struggling. He blushed at Fu Yanchuan for a long time, then suddenly jumped up and ran to the bathroom, leaving Fu Yanchuan with a sentence.

 

“Wait.”

 

Fu Yanchuan couldn’t wait any longer, so he went to the bathroom door anxiously. After waiting for a while, he suddenly heard a muffled thud and quickly opened the door and rushed in.

 

Qi Xi curled up in front of the bathtub, his pajamas half fallen off, his face red and he was breathing rapidly, obviously having a seizure.

 

He quickly picked him up and put him on his lap. He put his hands together to cover Qi Xi’s mouth and nose. Qi Xi leaned against the bathtub. He panted until his breathing slowly calmed down, and his eyes suddenly became aggrieved.

 

Ok?

 

Fu Yanchuan felt very distressed. He had been very cautious during this period, fearing that Qi Xi would have another attack. He never expected that he could over-stress himself.

 

But he still couldn’t bear to blame Qi Xi, so he leaned over and coaxed him, “Are you feeling uncomfortable anywhere?”

 

Qi Xi’s face suddenly turned red again, “That, that’s too weird, how can I put that in you?1! How can I put it in?!”

 

Fu Yanchuan was shocked and even felt that he didn’t understand what Qi Xi was saying. In Qi Xi’s eyes, was he the one below?

 

He hesitated for only a second on this question. If it was Qi Xi’s request, he would not be unable to reject it.

 

After making sure Qi Xi was breathing normally, he picked him up and pulled up Qi Xi’s pajamas and walked out.

 

Qi Xi hugged him tightly with both hands and only pulled his collar when they returned to the bed. He suddenly questioned him again, “Are you going to put your horrible thing on me, I – how can you think of such a thing, you -“

 

Qi Xi’s voice got lower and lower. Fu Yanchuan thought he looked both adorable and pitiful. He couldn’t say he hadn’t thought about it, so he just kept silent. Qi Xi frightened himself and started crying. He rushed over and hid his face in his chest and said, “I just tried two fingers, and it felt so weird! How could yours be–“

 

“Do not talk.”

 

Fu Yanchuan was just heartbroken at this moment. He didn’t expect Qi Xi to make him sick like this. “I don’t deny that I’ve thought about it, but it’s not necessary. If you don’t like it, we can not do it.”

 

“…Not really. I want to do what real lovers do with you. I want you to like me more. They say that if there is an unharmonious life, the relationship will fade. I don’t want that. You really want to do it, don’t you?”

 

Qi Xi said for the first time that they were lovers. Fu Yanchuan’s heart was beating wildly. Qi Xi’s face was so red that it burned his chest. He continued in a very low voice: “The comics say that it is actually comfortable. We can try it first.”

 

After a long while, Fu Yanchuan finally lifted up Qi Xi’s face. It was indeed red as if it was about to bleed, and it was also full of temptation as if it wanted to suck him in. He asked with certainty, “You can’t ignore me from now on, okay?”

 

Qi Xi turned away and nodded gently.